My daughter messaged me today, and reminded me of how much joy and laughter that the Lord has blessed me with in my life. I am so thankful for what he has given me. I am overcoming my flesh with His help. It takes determination on my part, even when I don't feel determined. It takes commitment, even when I don't want to commit myself. My flesh resists the things of the Spirit when I don't 'feel' God's presence.
What is it that causes me to feel the presence of the Lord at certain times, and then feel nothing for long periods? Why can't I just walk in the presence of God continually? I have asked this so many times, and tried to 'get back' that feeling. I tell myself, 'it's not about feelings, it's faith" but it still is disheartening.
Forgive me for my unbelief during times of spiritual drought, Lord. Forgive me for not being self disciplined enough to keep reading, keep spending time seeking You, keep praying even when I don't feel anything. I long to feel your presence again. I long to get my hunger back. Am I too lazy? Has the comfort of my flesh overridden my obedience to your Spirit? Forgive me for that. I cannot overcome without You, Lord. I need you to give me the grace, and power to be consistent, and overcome my flesh that wants to sleep, and do nothing. Help me to walk through the doors you have opened for me. I need you Lord.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 TPT But he answered me, “My grace is always more than enough for you, and my power finds its full expression through your weakness.” So I will celebrate my weaknesses, for when I’m weak I sense more deeply the mighty power of Christ living in me. 10 So I’m not defeated by my weakness, but delighted! For when I feel my weakness and endure mistreatment—when I’m surrounded with troubles on every side and face persecution because of my love for Christ—I am made yet stronger. For my weakness becomes a portal to God’s power.
